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Hi. I’m 28, male, a happy person, but lately I’m just completely lost in my life. I moved to NYC about a yr ago, and I love this city, dont have that many friends but I still have a few and have had a good time here. I am very unhappy with my job, I am a graphic designer and I work with a huge corporation making big corporate brand packaging. Most designers would probably love this job, but Im not that type of person(Im more laid back hippie type that likes art, not corporate sell out i guess you could say) This job keeps me up at night stressed about the work, I feel I have aged 5 yrs in the last year because of it, and because of the enourmous rent I was paying this last year 2650 a month! Things kind of fell apart this last year, or rather didnt happen the way I had planned. I originally moved to NY with my ex gf and a friend, and only ended up in that 2650 a month apt because I was trying to help my ex gf. She was going to school near it. Boy was that a mistake, she ended up leaving NYC along with my friend and they basically ditched me with a huge mess of rent and stress. So the job I had taken on a short term basis ended up becomming a full time thing because I needed the money. I feel blessed to have a job at all, but lately Ive felt like Im just getting by and not actually living my life. There is so much I want to do, take pictures, travel, meet new people and play an instrument, but lately Ive just been so trapped in my head thinking about work stuff, how broke i am and how Im in terrible debt even though I work all the time, and about my ex gf drama. I feel lonely sometimes, but more then that I just feel lost. Sometimes I think it be better to just get a non thinking job like bartending or something so I can allow my brain to free up and focus on y fine art photography and stuff? I dunno, Im so confused these days, maybe I should just move out of NYC, and move somewhere cheaper? I dunno either, Im 28 and sick of moving so much, and would like to settle down in a city and actually make a group of friends. I am havign a bad day….
Thanks for your advice